i realize it has been a long time since i’ve written. it’s been an incredibly busy time emotionally and physically. Turkey is an amazing country and i miss it daily. the friends i’ve made, the friendships i’ve strengthened, the new family i have, and just realizing people actually appreciate me for me was extremely humbling. i had no case of culture shock or whatever fuck else that’s called because just being in a concrete jungle is thoroughly invigorating. by living in a new country you really see how things can be different and why it works. to really make genuine connections you can’t be flaunting all the time that your home country is the best because that in itself raises a barrier that will take excessive effort to break down. you also really have to set down any inhibition you may have. this was evident in the varying confidence levels and results of language learning + usage that i’ve witnessed. i am currently continuing my Turkish language study here at SU in intermediate Turkish. being able to continue applying the language here is awesome. i also plan on attending a meeting of the Turkish Student Association here so i can see whats up and maybe contribute in some way.

apartment living has been chill so far with the exception of some crazy ass drama that i will not get into here. it’s all really stupid and like hell will i get involved further than i already have been pulled in. i have way better and more important things to worry about.

i have also decided to take my writing more seriously. some of you know that last semester i had a piece published in one of SU’s literary magazines. i have looked into some programs and societies that pique my interests and will fling myself forward into the uncomfortable and try it out. i have a lot of ideas running around and a lot of ways i could assemble them. this should prove to be interesting.

this is will be an interesting few months ahead with a lot going on and in store for me. i will be taking to tumblr less and less, not only because i will be extremely busy but also because i prefer writing by hand before converting to electronic platforms. good luck with everything yall and don’t hesitate to reach out. i’ll still pop by every now and then.

Tömer assigned each of us yabancılar a Turkish speaking partner/peer, and i have the utmost respect and love for my speaking partner @deniz_sonmez_ . i could not have been paired with a more awesome friend! our adventures were always fun no matter what we did, whether it was eating, walking around, or tearing it up at clubs. çok teşekkürler ederim kardeşim! türkçe gramer yardım için, Ankara’dan etrafında bana gösterdin için, her zaman eğlendik için! ailem gibi ayrıca seni seviyorum ve özlüyorüm. you are the best Deniz!  🌊😘😘💙👯 ayrıca, çok teşekkür @bupe06 , @tutkukartal , @ehamulu , Tarik, ve Ale ayrıca güzel ve fun insanlar oluyorlar için, you all rock!! Ankara’ya tekrar geleceğim!!!!

Tömer assigned each of us yabancılar a Turkish speaking partner/peer, and i have the utmost respect and love for my speaking partner @deniz_sonmez_ . i could not have been paired with a more awesome friend! our adventures were always fun no matter what we did, whether it was eating, walking around, or tearing it up at clubs. çok teşekkürler ederim kardeşim! türkçe gramer yardım için, Ankara’dan etrafında bana gösterdin için, her zaman eğlendik için! ailem gibi ayrıca seni seviyorum ve özlüyorüm. you are the best Deniz! 🌊😘😘💙👯 ayrıca, çok teşekkür @bupe06 , @tutkukartal , @ehamulu , Tarik, ve Ale ayrıca güzel ve fun insanlar oluyorlar için, you all rock!! Ankara’ya tekrar geleceğim!!!!

this summer i had an amazing opportunity to learn Turkish and spend a month in Turkey after 7 wks at ASU. my ASU crew, yall know i love yall to the moon and back and we stuck it out these 11 wks, i’m hella proud! but special shoutouts have to go to a few wonderful Turkish folks who really made my stay special. my host family was way more than i ever could have asked for, and they made sure i felt welcome and loved, accepting me for me. they helped me out each day and shared so much with me and i will absolutely do the same for them when they visit America. language barriers didnt stop us and we found creative ways around (çok teşekkür sözlük). Babam, annem, Merve, Beyza, ve Şeyma (plus Tuğçe, gelecek defa tanışacağız!), çok teşekkürler ederim her şey için, ben çok minnetkar. Evide mükemmel ve rahat. Her zaman Türkiye’ye dönüyürum, siz Amerika’ya giteceksiniz inshallah! Ayrıca teşekkür teyze, dayı, ve Ezgi bana güzel için. Sızı seviyorum ve özlüyorüm. Öptum! 😘😘

this summer i had an amazing opportunity to learn Turkish and spend a month in Turkey after 7 wks at ASU. my ASU crew, yall know i love yall to the moon and back and we stuck it out these 11 wks, i’m hella proud! but special shoutouts have to go to a few wonderful Turkish folks who really made my stay special. my host family was way more than i ever could have asked for, and they made sure i felt welcome and loved, accepting me for me. they helped me out each day and shared so much with me and i will absolutely do the same for them when they visit America. language barriers didnt stop us and we found creative ways around (çok teşekkür sözlük). Babam, annem, Merve, Beyza, ve Şeyma (plus Tuğçe, gelecek defa tanışacağız!), çok teşekkürler ederim her şey için, ben çok minnetkar. Evide mükemmel ve rahat. Her zaman Türkiye’ye dönüyürum, siz Amerika’ya giteceksiniz inshallah! Ayrıca teşekkür teyze, dayı, ve Ezgi bana güzel için. Sızı seviyorum ve özlüyorüm. Öptum! 😘😘

the whole time, i wanted more but held back because it was wrong. why is it so hard to let go? idk.

multilingual murakami #harukimurakami #japanese #english #türkçe #couldntbehappier #theturkishcoversarewaycooler

multilingual murakami #harukimurakami #japanese #english #türkçe #couldntbehappier #theturkishcoversarewaycooler

clubpunk:

The lines and symmetry in this though. It’s pornographic 

clubpunk:

The lines and symmetry in this though. It’s pornographic 

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this outfit though

shutupnlive:

this outfit though

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fuck yeah kittttt

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jokes about not being able to write while i’m here. i just want to spend as much time hanging out and experiencing things while i can and document later. but tonight was just so great that i had to write even just a little bit. Turkish nightclubs pwn (yes, i’m bringing that term back) American ones. no entrance fees (or super cheap if there is), good liquor, great entertainment, bumping playlists, free water (or like 1 lira) and amazing people. my Turkish student peer told me no one would steal anything if i just left it somewhere. my bag was indeed untouched the whole time i left it unattended (with many strangers that just came and went from our booth, at that!) and my Turkish phone (along with someone else’s phone in our group) was taken but by folks who were worried about them sitting in the open and when i asked i was led to them where they returned them. simply amazing. 

everything here has just been such an amazing learning experience as well as a much needed refresher from some internal drama and negative feelings. with Ankara being a big city (and Istanbul too, will explore it over the Bayram holiday), i am absolutely in my element here and i fucking love it. if yall aren’t considering studying abroad/learning a new language yall absolutely have to rethink it. you lose out on so much by not traveling abroad and as a result have far narrower perspectives on things. please consider it.